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|Sunday, October 29th, 2006|
halloween is fun. tonight i drank and felt like a hooker and had my boob exposed at the bar but things are fun and buzzed nonetheless.
a week ago i met someone tentatively amazing who could change things but i probably wont let that happen. i might burrow for the winter though, it's still to be decided. im so good at ruining things that at this point i dont even care.
i like good friends i dont like working but i like weekends i like living but some memories are tough
i hope everyone is well and doing what they want.
|Thursday, October 5th, 2006|
for lunch today i had an oreo and an orgasm.
|Tuesday, June 20th, 2006|
good news and stuff! i got a job. actually i got two jobs. i rule! ok probably not, but im pretty darn excited. and kendall and i signed for our apartment today!! we are moving in june 30th or something. im totally relieved it is actually coming together...i must admit, i was a bit worried. after multiple hideous days, its fucking nice to have multiple great ones.
im really finally actually seeing that im really finally actually better off without that one dude. i know what its like to be loved and i know what its like to be appreciated and that wasnt it. and now i can love and appreciate more. lesson learned!
i've been trying to update my journal more just cause stuff is all crazyinsanity and i like to look back. im still more of a pen and paper gal though.
at least i already have my belongings packed up and basically ready to move. all i gots to worry about now is making money and having a good time.
oh, and must i not fail to mention that my new job requires all black clothes and a provided pearl necklace!! hahahahaha. i look like an old lady attending a funeral. Current Mood: excited
|Saturday, June 17th, 2006|
yes, the times they are a changin'
transition period consists of: the travel channel and tlc, air conditioning, parting my hair with a knife, hissing cats, forgetting everything, clove cigarettes, unwelcome exboyfriends, not so unwelcome ex boyfriends, piles in the middle of the room, popeye murals.
some people are amazing and some people are fuck you very much.
some people i just try to take home and when i know i can, i dont.
i came here alone and im gonna leave by myself.
which one of the two of us is gonna burn this house down?
|Tuesday, June 13th, 2006|
holy crap, im such a dirtbag. in my packing adventures, i just found this random box in the corner of my room. in the box was a plastic bag consisting of jelly beans, star wars stickers, runts, and a pair of earrings. haha, what the fuck.
and oh my god, i hate moving.
|Friday, June 9th, 2006|
well lets hope a bad rehearsal really does make for a good performance :/
im exhausted and going to bed!
which might be lame since this is my first friday unemployed.
however, tonight was long and brutal and tomorrow will also be long and brutal. Current Mood: drained
|Tuesday, June 6th, 2006|
im at work for my last night...6 more hours!!!!! it just so happens that so far its been one of the most wretched fucking nights ever. so part of me wants to kill everything, but part of me is glad it worked out this way because i have absolutely no regrets about leaving. just sheer joy that i never have to return!
now my plans include getting really drunk, trying to find a job, and getting things accomplished. although not at the same time. got lots o' packing to do, apartment hunting, finding a job, moving, recital, blah blah blah...head explodey. but being forced to keep busy keeps my mind off all the suck.
speaking of my recital hehe, its saturday the 10th. i get to prance around on a stage and feel like a six year old...weeeeeeee! but then after that, pals are going out for dinner and a drinking good time. you should join us!
very soon im going to run away to chicago for a couple few days because he makes it all better.
i think the only person i will miss from this junk hotel is my old man friend who occasionally brings me chicken dinners. he just witnessed someone being annoying and was like "this is the last night of this shit, tell em all to kiss your ass." haha, yes! oh and my boss called me and told me i had been a great asset and he was excited for my future and what not. that was nice, i love him.
you do tend to find out who really cares when you're having a bad time. and i am extremely grateful to find out that the ones who do far outnumber the ones who dont.
|Tuesday, May 30th, 2006|
so i know this makes me a giant tool but...
my irrational fear of june bugs has taken over my life as of late!
i witnessed someone swallow a live one whole the other night...most repulsive thing ive ever seen.
they are taking over the hotel too, every night when i leave work they are swarming outside the doors and it takes me like ten minutes to work up the courage to dash out to my car. there was one behind the desk at one point and i was shrieking in fear so some little old lady came back there and took that mother fucker out with her cane. hahahaha. pretty humorous really. IS JUNE OVER YET oh wait it hasnt even started. fantastic!
|Monday, May 29th, 2006|
i quit my job without another one lined up.
im moving out of my apartment.
my boyfriend broke up with me.
my father is a selfish bastard whom i will not be conversing with for quite some time.
yeah. but life goes on.
and there are the good things that will always be the good things...
my friends are unendingly awesome
myself, im a good time
and the idea that things surely cant get a whole lot worse so they are bound to get better.
|Sunday, May 14th, 2006|
internet drama is nauseating. its more repulsive than your average drama, hands down. my ass is big you say? all the better for me to poop on you! hehehehe.
john and i painted my bathroom a few days ago, its super cute! and i put up a new shower curtain that contributes to the super cuteness. i might post some pictures once i get the disaster cleaned up. i forgot to take before pictures though which is kind of sad. it was icky though, that i promise.
|Friday, May 5th, 2006|
"sometimes it seems like love
is just a fancy word for compromise
you gotta read between the years
you gotta write between the lines
you gotta try to understand
the grandness of the man behind the petty crimes
and let him off easy sometimes"
i have been on a huge ani kick lately. i love her guts!!
um hmm, i dont have tons to say, i just felt like updating.
not much going on as of late, been having some fun. i like fun.
summer is coming, i thrive in the summer. i like to thrive.
i have a tan. it is fake. but it makes me not need makeup.
giggles and fun.
|Saturday, April 15th, 2006|
haha, i love you silly. no not you. okay yeah you.
i have like 10 windows in my apartment. only two of them can be opened, one in my bedroom and one in the kitchen, due to lack of/shitty screens. well i have a very irrational fear of bugs and since i live alone and have no one to kill them, i have been leaving the windows closed at night. however, i live upstairs and its stuffy as hell up here. what a shame to waste this amazing weather right?
well tonight i decided id rather be the girl who feels the breeze compared to the girl who suffocates out of fear. and tonight i shall sleep with the window open. Current Mood: just fine
|Monday, April 10th, 2006|
so im reading a certain book and this is funny...
"plus he used the word 'destiny.'what kind of new age bullshit is that?"
heh. in other news, i have fantastic friends and i still rock. yay empowerment! Current Mood: down but not out
|Saturday, April 8th, 2006|
i spent my rent money on things that are pretty. and i dont care.
AND i just ate the shit out of a cheeseburger.
|Thursday, April 6th, 2006|
well ive managed to get myself pretty sick by not eating for so long. that was way smart. i cant help it though, i have no appetite! im going to attempt to choke down some toast here in a bit so i can have something solid in me and maybe i'll stop gagging and other gross stuff. gah, everything is still up in the air, im still depressed beyond belief. it could actually even be worse now. wow, who saw this coming? and what the fuck...why is it that underneath everything, im still just hopeful. ive never been optimistic before and now seems like a stupid time to start.
step 1. nurse myself back to health
step 2. harden my heart
|Friday, March 10th, 2006|
it is beautiful outside today, i got a cute new haircut, and i found 6 dollars in my laundry. hooray!!
|Thursday, January 12th, 2006|
|Sunday, January 1st, 2006|
2005 was positively horrid so im hoping things look up this year. my negative outlook on life is telling me probably no though. resolutions are for sissies...so i went ahead and made one, har har. i shall attempt to not spend money like a crazy woman anymore. although i still haven't figured out where it goes! except i might have to buy myself some crest whitening strips because my teeth are looking yellow, ew. last night was fun with my pals, here are lotsa pictures.( wastoidsCollapse )
|Sunday, December 25th, 2005|
merry christmas suckers. im at work so im kind of pissed about that. however, i am freaking spoiled and got a ton o' presents and the family didn't act horrendous, so i can't complain. i got a digital camera so i will probably put lots of pictures up. due to the new cam, and being bored at work, i gave myself a one time permission slip to be a camera whore. too bad i look creepy today. here you go bitches...( behold my dark under-eye bagsCollapse ) Current Mood: christmas-tastic